Is questioning Jesus anti-christian or is Jesus anti-Christ?

Beliefs are for the living not the dead, so you don't believe, doesn't make Jesus less real to me. the body is certainly there but where is the spirit, or don't you believe you have a spirit, you know how do you explain the little voice inside of you, the knowing who you are part, the part no doctor or scientist can find that is part of us all...where does it go...